Monday, January 23, 2012

The Black Smoke

The putrid black smoke filled the free way. No one could see anything. They couldn’t even see their hand right in front of their faces. They just sat there as they squeal and wail hoping someone would catch her attention. Two men climb from their cars walking blindly through the black smoke just trying to find an exit. Their eyes and lungs burnt like fire burned paper. They clawed and reached to find something to grab a hold of until reach the fence.
“I found a fence! We can hop it!” Bill cried.
“Alright lets-“ Tommie was cut off by the bloody cries pleading for help.
“Help me! Someone help me please!” They looked at each other faced with a life or death decision. They knew what they had to do. They walked into the smoke yelling back to who sounded to be a teenage girl, “Where are you?” They pleaded, “Come towards us!” All they could see was the darkness and pure black. Trudging through the black smoke they followed the girl’s blood curdling yelps as they came to a car set on fire. The driver’s side door had been melted shut. The car was a ticking time bomb. Immediately the men sprung into action, heaving at the passenger side door.
“It’s not budging!” Tommie cried yanking at the door. “Help me!”
“Okay, pull on the count of three as hard as you can! One… Two… Three!” Bill screamed heaving at the door.
“It’s still not budging!”Tommie cried, “It’s useless! We’re too weak to do anything!” Bill could read Tommie’s eyes like a young child’s book.
“We can do this.” Bill exclaimed, “Heave!” The door flung open and Bill shot his arm through the doorway of the car, pulling the teenage girl out. The girl clasped Bill’s arm, there was no way that she would ever let go. Guiding her to the fence they climbed over and a surge of emotion came over them. The girl had bleached blonde hair, and her blue sunglasses had begun melting to the bridge of her nose. She peered over the rim of her glasses and her eyes blue as the sparkling blue lagoons were read as her tears poured down her face in relief and gratitude.
“Thank- Thank- Thank-you so much…” the girl said shaken by the horror that had struck. “My-my name is Angelina. I- I’m seventeen years old.” She said bawling. The men clasped her in their arms speechless and their energy spread between each other just as they heard the explosion. They looked back at the bursting flames watching the scrap metal of the car fall to the ground like meteorites that could have finished them all. The girl began to cry harder, as the ambulance found them and took them away.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Mourning in the Winter Mornings







Author's Note: This picture reminded me of how everything dies and becomes glum, but then it brightens up just like life. In this way, I am metaphorically comparing a tree and nature to life.


 Spring’s beauty is truly magnificent. The flowers blooming and the fresh mist in the air
The snow falls in a whirl landing and sticking piling over and over again. The children sled down the hills only to tread up the god forsaken hills once more to glide down the slope for a second time. The excitement in their lives is immense and everything seems perfect, but they’re delusional on what is truly happening around them. The ice is clear; no one could see the ice. The cars cruise along then hitting the ice. Screeching and sliding attempting to come to a halt, but find themselves losing control and crashing. Then, the poor children who weren’t taught any better walk onto the thin ice of the pond. Waddling and and making their way they slip and break the ice falling to their deaths.

Oh how I despise the winter. Winter… for some it’s a joyful season with hugs and kisses… but what about for me? For me it’s a sorrow filled pit of death and despair. Everything around us dies and most don’t seem to care. I mean it’s not like you should care to the point of ruining your life with no way to turn back, but it’s just the mindless delusional people that frolic in the snow thinking nothing’s wrong.             That’s what bothers me. Do they honestly not know what’s truly been happening? How the frigid cold pierces the homeless out on the streets. Everything around them is beginning to fade, yet everything seems brighter and happier… but it’s not. Somehow everything seems gloomy and gray and you’re just reminded of what could’ve been if that car wouldn’t have hit that sheet of black ice, if only that lake’s ice wouldn’t have thinned and broken dragging an innocent child to their death.
Although life knocks you down you have the choice to get up again. It’s okay to break, everyone is going to break at some point, even the strongest people break, but the best thing you can do is to get back up again. Nature can pick itself up and bloom the beautiful fields and sunshine, so why can’t you? You were created to live your life until you were needed or were no longer needed. The ways of the lord are mysterious and won’t be known soon or possibly ever. Above it all, you just have to keep moving, live life to the fullest, learn as much as you can, and laugh as often as you please because once you’re gone, all you should honestly be remembered with is laughter and happy memories. If the only way you will be remembered is with tears and mourning, maybe you shouldn’t be remembered y those specific people at all.

Poor Decisions, Fatal Decisions.


Author's Note: I chose this song to "recite" what I thought the song meant because I thought it had a powerful message showing the importance of the topic. Don't drink while driving.

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light (I’ve truly opened my eyes, and now I’m being taken away.)
I can't remember how (I have no idea how this happened)
I can't remember why (I have no idea why I did what I did.)
I'm lyin' here tonight (Now my decisions have brought me to my fate.)
And I can't stand the pain (I can’t stand this pain this has caused me and others with my decisions.)
And I can't make it go away (I can’t make this unbearable pain go away.)
No I can't stand the pain (I truly can’t stand all the pain that has came rushing into my life.)

Chorus:
How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes (I made mymistakes, and I know that people learned from mymistakes, but what about me? I learned but wheres my living part?)
got nowhere to run (I can’t go anywhere. My decisions were poor and now I’m leaving.)
the night goes on
as I'm fadin' away (Everything is continuing, but im not. My life is slowly slipping away.)
I'm sick of this life (I can’t believe everything that’s happened. I hate life.)
I just wanna scream (I just want to let it all out.)
How could this happen to me? (How did this even happen?)

Everybody's screamin' (Everyone is confused, frustrated, angry, letting their emotion out.)
I try to make a sound but no one hears me (I’m trying to talk to you, but you can’t hear me. I’m gone. I know you’ll never hear me.)
I'm slippin' off the edge (I’m slipping; I know I’m going to die… Death just hasn’t come to claim me yet.)
I'm hangin' by a thread (I have the slightest bit of life in me.)
I wanna start this over again (I want to go back in time. I want to have never made my stupid decisions, not to have caused everything I have, but I can’t.)

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered (I try to stay in the state of time where I felt at ease and as if nothing truly mattered, and I was happy and not in one of my my dumb decisions.)
And I can't explain what happened (I can’t explain how it got away from me so easily.)
And I can't erase the things that I've done (I want to have changed my past. When I drove under the influence… )
No I can't (…but I can’t.)

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes (I made my mistakes, and I know that people learned from my mistakes, but what about me? I learned but where’s my living part?)
got nowhere to run (I can’t go anywhere. My decisions were poor and now I’m leaving.)
the night goes on
as I'm fadin' away (Everything is continuing, but im not. My life is slowly slipping away.)
I'm sick of this life (I can’t believe everything that’s happened. I hate life.)
I just wanna scream (I just want to let it all out.)
How could this happen to me? (How did this even happen?)


I've made my mistakes (I made my mistakes, and I know that people learned from my mistakes, but what about me? I learned but where’s my living part?)
got nowhere to run (I can’t go anywhere. My decisions were poor and now I’m leaving.)
the night goes on
as I'm fadin' away (Everything is continuing, but im not. My life is slowly slipping away.)
I'm sick of this life (I can’t believe everything that’s happened. I hate life.)
I just wanna scream (I just want to let it all out.)
How could this happen to me? (How did this even happen?)


Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Cody

Author's Note: my interpretation on this writing assignment was to write a monologue/short story portraying my lizard's feelings and thoughts from the point of being in the pet store after being captured and then being brought to me and my family's "loving" home.


              I’m the happiest and luckiest reptile ever to be out of that pet store. The inconsiderate humans took me captive in a glass box that looks like my home… but I’m not stupid. It was not home for me. People would pass me with a look of disgust on their faces, some would scream, and some would be intrigued in me. Oh but then to make it worse were those children. I know they had good intent on wanting me… but It’s just that they press their faces up to the glass making them look like some demented animal, fogging up the glass so I had no true picture of what my surroundings were. I was in the desert and then I turn around to see people in a store? Yeah, I’m not a dim-witted lizard. I for one think I am a very intelligent being. Then some family came in and picked me light off the bat. I was happy as a buzzing bee in a field of flowers. They took me home, but I had to sit in some room where to only light was in my cage and surrounding me was cloth. I believe I was in what they call a closet. Then one day, I was taken out of my cage and carried into a room. The sun spilled in and people surrounded me, and then a little boy came up and everyone gathered around me giving me the attention and non-artificial love I’ve always wanted.



Okay, so now it’s official. I finally have a family who will hold me, take care of me, and have that real love and appreciation that I deserve. I finally have a real name… well at least one of many nicknames. I don’t believe I have a real one yet. The human they call Hannah calls me Cody and keeps making me look at this person on her wall. How could there be so many of him, and how is he hanging on her wall? There is no way he could be comfortable. She always tells me, “See that amazingly stunning teenager on my wall? That’s Cody Simpson, the guy you’re named after, but I feel so cherished here in this home with the roaming freedom I adore.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Heartbreak

Author's Note: My writing circle chose the topic heartbreak and I've written down how I've felt about things before. From a different person's point of view.

I saw you,
I liked you,
You like me,
We began to be,
You got bored,
Then You cheated,
Now were over,
so you're deleted,
My heart now longs for you,
my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you,
and my empty arms reach out for you
now nothing will cure my headache,
because I'm now experiencing what we all call heartbreak.

Friday, December 16, 2011

You Just Won't Understand


 AUTHOR'S NOTE: My writing's circle's topic was depression and this is how i once felt and still feel sometimes. Honestly, most people truly just wont understand.

Depression is hard to explain. Those who've never had it, the "lucky ones" as I like to think simply won't understand. It's not that you're sad all the time... It's more like you just lack emotion. You go through your daily routine, but inside you're just a big ball of nothing. It's strange, really. At the end of the month, if someone were to ask you how that month was, you wouldn't have an answer. The days pass by like a blur. You watch others have fun with their friends and you just... you just wish that could be you. Why do they deserve it more than you? Why?
Oh then comes the constant wondering. It's so consistent you honestly can't keep your mind on anything besides the wonder. You know... what have I done to deserve this? How long can this, this gaping hole inside me last? Will I ever feel happiness - TRUE happiness - again?
Sometimes... well, no, more than sometimes, I reflect on life before this emptiness started. Life used to be so... colorful. Fun existed; you know what I'm saying? And I even find myself getting lost in those happy times! It's so great to feel again,  but nothing is worse than leaving those memories and returning to reality. It's like a slap in the face. The color leaves and all you can see is black and white again.


Friday, December 9, 2011

Grumpy Old Man


 Author's Note: My writing circle chose Elderly people and I was inspired by a man, i forget who, but his story saddened me of how people saw him, and then he passed away.

You leave me here only to assume
That when you see me sitting in my room
You pass me by wondering why I seem so glum
You think that a grumpy old man is all I’ve become

I don’t see my kids, my sons and my daughters
I sit here alone thinking I ought to
No one comes and visits me s I sit here alone
My wife had died just a few years ago.

I wonder if you could ever have the heart to look underneath.
And see my heart and soul underneath
If sometime I could just fulfill my plans
But All you see is a simple, grumpy old man.


I would just want somebody to visit me.
And just see everything that I always do be
You’ve never truly known me, so why do you judge me?

I played sports, I’ve built forts
I used to hide all I ever wanted to imply.
But now I just wanted say…
You think I’m a simple grumpy old man
Why couldn’t you have helped me fulfill my plan?